A Series – The Tapping Solution – Part 2

This (probably/obviously) follows up A Series – The Tapping Solution – Part 1.

The Tapping Solution by Nick Ortner is an amazing book and program. That said, I have a confession… and it pains me… and I mean *really pains me* to share it:

I’m afraid.

There, that was easier than I thought it would be!

Over the last two days, I have been studying, watching and reading about Tapping.

To go a bit deeper than the last post on the subject, let’s begin with the definition of Tapping, as taken from The Tapping Solution website:

Tapping is a combination of Ancient Chinese Acupressure and Modern Psychology that works to physically alter your brain, energy system and body all at once. The practice consists of tapping with your fingertips on specific meridian points while talking through traumatic memories and a wide range of emotions.

To use this program, you must first identify your Most Pressing Issue (MPI) and you may have many… but you should work on one at a time.

This is where my first problem arose. What is my MPI?

• Depression
• Panic Attacks
• Health Anxiety
• Hypochondria
• Guilt
• Shame
• Fear
• Seasonal Affective Disorder
• Fat
• Unhealthy (asthma, hypertension, migraine)

Is that list too vast? I mean, should I be more specific? Well, this much I’ve figured out… yes, and yes. Sheesh, yes!!

So my list now becomes:

• What am I afraid of?
  • People
  • Suffering (others and my own)
  • Dying (others and my own)
  • Not being able to say goodbye because I’m so far away from most everyone I love.
    • Oh, wait. That may be *something* there.
• Why do I feel guilt and shame?
  • See above. I’m missing out on important moments and milestones because I live so far away from most everyone I love.
    • The planes, trains, automobiles and phones go both ways.
      • That can’t be right. It needs to be on ME, since I made the choice to move.
        • That was 20 years ago.
          • See, who needs tapping when you have such a chatty alter-ego?
            • Well, you do, since you’ve been carrying this baggage for 20 years.
              • Oh. Yeah. I see what you mean.
• Why do I get SAD in the Winter?
  • Because it’s dark.
    • Because I’m afraid of the dark.
      • Am I? Why?
        • It is nothingness.
          • Actually, no, it isn’t.
            • I don’t know or don’t want to know or want to admit, even to myself that bad things happen in the dark.
              • DO. NOT. GO. THERE.
                • Don’t worry. I won’t. *shiver*
• At what point does my body rebel and say enough food, enough weight, it’s time to let go?
  • Wait, did you just say “let go”… as if you have a… choice?
    • Yes, I guess I did.
      • Then, why don’t you?
        • I don’t know.
          • Actually, you do.
            • It protects me.
              • What does?
                • The fat.
                  • Well, there ya go.

And now my MPI’s seem to fall into place – at least a little:

• Afraid of the dark
• Afraid of the process of dying and death
• Afraid of carrying excess weight and also afraid of losing it
• Afraid of leaving my loved ones behind

And guess what I just did? Overthought the process to its inevitable conclusion, which is…

That was a lot of work for nothing. I haven’t even tapped. What a loser.

Also, now I’m too tired to tap. Or even think about it.

And so, I put the book down. Maybe another day. Ho hum.

It’s all just gobbledygook… not the tapping, my excuses. In truth, I just don’t want to do it. That’s me, being 100% transparent with you.

I don’t want to do it because…

• What if it doesn’t work?
• What if it does?

So, there you have it. Me, being me. And I could just stop and call it a day. In fact, I think I will. But not before I share another video… and it comes with a Trigger Warning for “Abuse” (physical/ emotional/ verbal). And you’ll see tapping in motion and know why it scares me.