As you know, I had x-rays after a nasty tumble about two weeks ago. And, as I’ve said, it was actually less of a tumble and more of a…
I drew a picture of me falling on this post so you can catch a visual. Go ahead and look. I’ll wait. You’re welcome!
Anyhow, I had x-rays and received the results yesterday.
Thankfully, my tailbone isn’t broken but it is deeply bruised. They did, however, discover more reasons for my pain: I have Degenerative Disk Disease, Facet Arthritis, and Sacroiliac Arthritis.
While Degenerative Disk Disease is common among us older folk, the other two are not. I’d never heard of them. Have you?
Facet Arthropathy (FA) is a painful, arthritic condition of the facet joints. These joints allow for bending, twisting, and alignment of the spine. The spinal nerves come off the spinal cord between the vertebra and the facet joints. Link
Sacroiliact Arthritis is an inflammation of one or both of your sacroiliac joints — situated where your lower spine and pelvis connect. Sacroiliitis can cause pain in your buttocks or lower back, and can extend down one or both legs. Prolonged standing or stair climbing can worsen the pain. Link
So, yeah, I’m in a mighty flare of painful arthritis and deep bruising. My pelvis is involved, which explains why a donut wasn’t helping, especially if I leaned in any direction. In fact, it made it mostly worse and I ended up aching up to my rib cage!
And so, I thought about it all this morning and came to a conclusion.
All my pain is emanating from the center of my body. The base.
I have asked God and everyone to explain the reason for this fall. I mean, I was being exceedingly careful. What the heck?
I have rehashed the accident in my mind… over and over…
It was Sunday night, 8pm, and I had determined I would NOT buy a new winter coat at this point in the season, even though I needed one. So, I was wearing two sweaters and a sweater coat.
This is important because I am a generous person who takes care of others and is not so good at taking care of myself. I mean, it’s February in eastern Canada. Snow much? Uh, yeah.
So, I made a decision…
Taking care of ME changes NOW!
I know I’ve said similar things in the past. I’ve always meant it, too.
This accident changed me.
It scared me.
It could have been much worse.
I learned things about my health and why I am in pain.
My pain is real. It’s not health anxiety or hypochondriacal <<< Is that a word? LOL
This is actual pain.
Just as my asthma and migraines were real before I was officially diagnosed and prescribed medication for them.
I have had a lifetime of pain that was downplayed by myself and others.
I was led to believe that my pain wasn’t real.
This experience has reminded me why MINDFUL is my word for 2022.
I am not the little boy crying wolf. Nor am I seeking attention. I never was!
My pain is real. REAL.
I no longer have time or room to ignore-away pain because I (and others) don’t understand it. Or minimize it.
That’s no way to live.
Not that it will be easy.
I MUST stay mindful.
Where does mindfulness come from? Your brain? Your heart? How about your core? I’m thinking … maybe … all the above?
This leads me to connect everything I’ve been talking about… beginning with the base.
What is the base chakra?
Name in Sanskrit: Mula meaning “root” and Adhara meaning “support” or “base”
Location: The base of the spine, the pelvic floor, and the first three vertebrae.
Signs of balance: Feelings of security, safety, and stability
Signs of imbalance: Anxiety, nightmares, fear, pain in the feet and legs, weight gain (particularly in the bottom half of the body), feelings of disconnect or alienation (Link)
I need to heal…
… and in going forward, continue the health journey I began last year.
I can’t wait for spring so I can get out and walk again! I have everything I need, especially a working body! Yeah, it hurts, but nothing gives me more pleasure than being in the middle of “my forest”… and if you’ve forgotten the photos, here’s a reminder!
In the meantime, I am doing what feeds my body and soul.
Today, as I prepared to write, I turned on my YouTube music list. I am a *very* eclectic music lover. It’s all emotional for me. I am not interested in genre or who is the best guitarist or singer… I resonate with the melody (or lack of), the words, and the energy and/or feelings exuding from the performer(s). I need to FEEL IT… and so, it was no surprise that I found myself up and (very carefully) swaying to music that moved me out of my chair. Later, I was in tears… missing those who have gone before me… the songs remind me of someone… or a moment in time… long gone but never forgotten.
And we are back to the core… the deepest place within.
Let’s remember to take care of it.
Last little note: Since I suspect you’re wanting to know what the heck that featured photo is?